Senior

 

     Although I am a senior citizen already coz I'm 61 y o, but until now I'm so imaginative that I am dancing. When I am in my younger, I was fond of dancing. Nowadays it's so different, I don't know if it was connected with my long-time sickness of hyperthyroidism. I had a hard time taking a long walk, my eyes are blurred, and I have always had rapid palpitations and short breathlessness. But I'm still fond of listening to music, imagining that I can still dance. I dance in my imagination whenever I watch Zumba dance. 

Neighbor J

 

     I am really amazed by my very smart neighbor. He is the one who used, maybe a combination of his education and talents. He is still young, maybe in 30 plus age, but he has many businesses. Apartment, store, tricycle, and I think he invests in stocks. So many businesses in his mind. Now there is a coming crisis for gasoline. He bought a solar panel. Sometimes I felt envy, just a little with matching admiration, of this young boy. I really want to be like him.

     I noticed that we had the same mindset. Before I want to put an internet cafe, but my husband doesn't want it. Then my neighbor put up an internet cafe, and it was booming at the time. And now that I was thinking of buying a solar panel too because of the coming crisis, but I don't have the resources. My neighbor is in action, but I just keep it in my mind, I cannot make it happen.

Ahoo

 

     Yesterday I mourned coz Ahoo died already. I had this guilty feeling as a fur parent because I cannot afford to take them to a vet coz I had no job and no resources. And when they died, I could not give them a nice burial coz there is no place here in my location. Ending, I had to put her in the garbage. I wish I had a land where I could bury properly and plant there for my beloved pets.

     Ahoo is almost 14 years old. She is a playful, sweet,  and protective cat. She sleeps with me and is very sweet with my younger cats, as if she's a mother.

dream

 

      I dream about being supposed to read a message to a person,  and I was in front of the door hoping to let me in, but the girl closed the door. I think I experienced it 2x. Another person did it to me again. Then, one neighbor, when she saw me she made a bad face at me. As if she were angry.

Baby dream

 

     I dream about a newborn baby boy.   Happy feeling, maybe someone else's baby, I saw 2 babies, one big and one smaller.